the candid files

oh my goodness
I am DYING to write some things in here…but I can’t…
ah my head is so full of…just…wow.
Mama Mia was great last night…oh and we went to the Woodbine Center in the afternoon and I FOUND MY COAT!!! the one I’d been searching through three malls for! and it was 40% off!!
So obviously I plunked down a hundred bucks right then and there. But now I feel like a real woman, because I have a grown-up coat. Yay!

My dog is being cuddly again. Wow, that’s weird. She’s lying by my feet. What a cute dog, even if she does smell bad.

OK goodnight all…if I sit here much longer I’m going to spill the beans.

it’s CHRISTMAS HOLIDAYS!!!!
I stayed in bed until 10:30 this morning. I was only interrupted by two phone calls from work, both offering me shifts…and therefore money…and I turned them both down. *guilty feelings*
Buuuuuuuuttt….what can ya do. I just feel like having a week with my family, no urgent deadlines. Yeah, that’s the way Christmas Holidays should be.

the other exciting thing is that today Peter and I have been together for two whole years. Happy anniversary to us. We’re going to see Mama Mia tomorrow to celebrate. We got cheap tickets, don’t worry.

I was very impressed with Katherine for remembering the whole anniversary thing. She came up to me at church last night and gave me a Christmas card type thing from her and Shane and Gabriel and *gasp* Baby X!!! Yes, baby II is due around June 30. Craziness!! Well actually I guess it’s fairly natural. But still…I think Shane and Katherine are going to end up with like 7 kids at this rate.

In case anyone’s interested, I will now go over the important holiday events in my next two weeks:

Saturday was VK Christmas presents, with good food, and Rokenbok. (don’t ask, I still don’t know what it is) Katie gave me a pair of cool blue slippers and a pen with a clock in it, so I will always know what time it is at school, which is really handy for me. Peter’s mom and dad gave me a pretty devotional/artistic book about gardens and a CASHMERE sweater. (lol Jim) and speaking of Jim, I drew his name so I bought him “the Worst-Case Scenario Survival Handbook” which he seems to have enjoyed quite a bit because now he knows how to do important things like win a swordfight and deliver a baby in a taxi. Peter and Caleb and Zachary and I got together to buy Mrs. VK a griddle for her delectable cooking, and Peter got his dad one of those brain busting type puzzles and a metal bucket because he needed one.

yay!

anyway today is nothing…i’m just going shopping and Peter’s coming over because well…there’s really no reason but it IS two years after all…then tomorrow I’m babysitting Alex all morning and then Pete and I are going to Woodbine Mall to look around and maybe have supper and then we’re going to see Mama Mia!! I’m excited, and I’ve seen it before.
Wednesday I should go to work for a little while. Thursday….oh yeah going to Peter’s grandparents…Friday is Christmas Eve, at my house…Christmas Day I’m going to work. blah. Boxing Day is big VK day. the 27th is the VandenHaak day, the 28th is the Lodder Day, and the 29th and 30th I’m mostly working, doing nothing. New Years Eve, probly at the Bonvanies’. New Years Day, working…then the 2nd is a normal Sunday…the 3rd we’re going to Blue Mountain! and then school starts again.
wow. I feel stressed out already.
OK off to go shopping.
Bye!

…had a really great talk with Sarah last night. Really making me think about stuff. And re-prioritizing some ideas I have held. Maybe I’ve been a little self-centered, while thinking I was being sensible and noble?

In other news, I have stolen the heart of a guy named Abdul, from Sudan, who thinks I’m the most beautiful woman he’s ever seen. You don’t hear that every day. Except from the boyfriend, and it doesn’t really count from him.

anyway I’m done school for TWO WHOLE WEEKS!!!

talk to you all later.
candice

good morning everyone!
ok, this is just in case anyone’s worried about me because my last post sounded suicidal…
I’m ok.

had a great morning…breakfast with the girls…Therapy Group!

And I can’t wait to meet Jake…he’s this male acquaintance of Michelle’s…

talk to y’all later!

I’m not having a good week.
I’m over tired, with a cold…I had a final exam today which sucked…it was so messed up. I feel like my period’s coming on, but it’s not due for another five days so that’s hardly fair, is it?
I miss Peter like CRAZY…I’ve barely talked to him since Monday.
My mom and I had a fight…
Not to mention I’m stressed over life-altering issues that I won’t discuss here.

In short, I’m right into the Christmas spirit.

Candice

guess what!
we saw the Incredibles

come on, ask me…
this is you: “how was it?”
this is me: “INCREDIBLE!!”

I thought it was hilarious. Peter and I were giggling almost as much as the seven year olds behind us. Sitting between Peter and Jim though…there was a contrast. Peter and me = gigglefest. Jim and Tammy = modest laughter. I can see how he hates being called Jimmy. And would prefer James Darling.

Ok, so I’m immature. I’m over it. And yes, we need different kinds of people in our lives, with different senses of humour.

But I’m glad my honey is the one with the ability to laugh at the silliest stuff…because life has a lot of stupid, silly stuff in it…and if you can’t laugh, you can’t really live.
I’m going to the Corma Deo concert tonight!

I SLEPT IN THIS MORNING!!!! UNTIL 7:45!!! Can you believe it? Oh it was luxury. I feel very rested.

you know you must be in college when you get that excited about sleep.

Peter and Tammy and Jim and I are going to see the Incredibles tonight. Because we all have tons of money to spend. Yeah right…but it’ll be fun.

At school, they keep bugging us to find out what we want to do, to make goals and stick to them. As a future Medical Secretary, I JUST DON’T KNOW YET!!! I can tell you what I don’t want to do, but honestly there are so many different ways to be a medical secretary how can I decide now whether I want to do 12-hour around the clock shifts admitting patients into Emergency, or an executive secretary to some big shot hospital CEO, or the lady who smiles at you and asks you for your health card when you walk into the doctor’s office?

Ok: So I DON’T want to work evenings, weekends and holidays. I’m tired of that. You know I haven’t yet been to a Christmas day service in my church, which I’ve been going to for…oh…two or three years now? And I’m not going to be there this Christmas. NOOOO I’m going to be pulling my hair out at work, trying to figure out how to feed all my residents and their fifty-odd relatives who just happen to drop in for Christmas dinner!!! And then complain when they don’t get their ice cream!!! grrr.
So that rules out shift work as a ward clerk in a hospital. I might take it, for the experience, but I definitely do not want to stay there.

I guess I go through stages of being excited about working as a medical administrator, and other times where I feel like all the jobs are crap, the pay is crap, and why do I bother?

Sound familiar? I just tell myself that anyone who’s doing anything in school probably feels the same way.

have a great weekend, and don’t think about school or work!! (unless you have to be at work, like me, in which case you should think about it, but forget it as soon as the dust of that place shakes from the soles of your shoes)

(yes laura! i said “the dust of that place”! “Housekeeping please call Home Area 1,2,3 and 4…”)

Ha. At least I don’t have to scrub toilets. Now I’m happy again.

Have you noticed that human beings are programmed to live in the present? Well, we do tend to worry about the future, but we forget the past. Amazing how quickly.

I was driving home this evening…well it was more like late afternoon…because it was still light out. I was looking at the trees and shrubberies…(hahaha) on the side of the road. They look so bleak right now. No leaves, just spindly branches. Suddenly I realized that I can’t really remember what that patch of roadside bush would look like in the summer. I honestly couldn’t picture leafy trees, when even two months ago they were all over the place!

I was putting Alex down for a nap this afternoon as well…he’s my little one year-old cousin that I sometimes babysit after school…and as I was holding him, trying to get his eyes to close and fall asleep I suddenly thought “wow…he’s so big now”. With his head in the crook of my arm, I was looking down at his (finally!) sleepy face, and thinking that he used to be so much smaller. But the only reason I know that is because I KNOW it, like I know trees grow leaves. I couldn’t remember what he looked like six months ago…back when he couldn’t crawl, couldn’t even roll over…it was really creepy.

Peter and I were talking about this last night. Life goes so fast and you’re so oblivious to everything except getting on with what you’re doing in the present so you can get to the future. But once you get to the future, you’re not at the future…you’re at the present! What’s the point?

I’ve been thinking about those words from the first Q&A of the Westminster Confession: What is man’s primary purpose?

To glorify God and to enjoy him forever.

There’s a bit of perspective for y’all.